Years ago, I went bankrupt. I mean those financially hard times were the worst. Counting pennies, never having enough money to put gas in my car and food on the table was awful. I scrimped, I budgeted, and still I was flat fucking broke.
Today brought me back to those times.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am nowhere near bankrupt, but it would be fair to say that cash flow has been less than, you know, flowing.
As a mortgage broker, I work on 100% commission. Well, the Canadian government, in all of their wisdom, have made so many changes to the lending rules that it has really had an impact on my business. Business is down. It’s harder to get mortgages for people, and it’s taking longer than before.
So again, the cash ain’t flowing like it used to.
Add to the lack of cash flow, putting my daughter through University in the states and putting in a ton of money into my coaching business and that makes a recipe for tight times. And trust me, I am not used to it after having done so well for so long. But it certainly makes things very clear.
Do I really need that $8.00 coffee? And those jeans? And that new lip gloss?
Amazing how when money is tight, stuff doesn’t seem that important. You can actually live without stuff. As mothers, single women, laid off women, etc… we all know how to stretch a dollar and budget. We all know what’s really important to spend money on and what we shouldn’t, so I know you feel me.
But what really got me feeling low and like a piece of shit was when my “gal” who has been helping me rock my coaching biz, cut me off until I got caught up on my invoices.
I was like, holy shit. I am scum; I can’t even pay my invoice.
But the worst part was that I had to make her have that conversation with me. And that, my friends, is what made me feel the worst.
You see, she is great. I love her and she has become a friend. But the humiliation I felt because I put her in that really tough position to have the “money talk” with me sucked a whole lot.
So we ended our meeting relatively quickly and I sat there and absolutely wanted to die – from the humiliation I felt and for the pain I caused her in having to have that talk. But I am happy to say that I scrounged up that money and paid in full that same day.
So here comes the lesson: If there is something that is so vitally important in our lives, no matter what, I know that we can always find a way to make that happen.
I know it from personal experience both from this and from past experiences. That’s what makes us amazing, versatile women. Where there is a will, there’s a way. Always. And today I practiced what I preach.
More importantly, it gave me even more conviction to get my coaching business to move forward successfully. It gave me more conviction to get my side hustle (I’ve partnered with a luxury hair care company) off the ground, as well.
Well, let’s face it. I like nice things, I like to travel, and I like money. So short of selling my body, I want to make money and lots of it. (Don’t judge me for being honest. It’s true; I’m a bit of a diva.)
So for all the women out there trying to make ends meet, trying to make more money, trying to find happiness in doing your own thing: to you I say, hold steady and hold firm.
You can do this. It will come.
Don’t be afraid because no matter what you think, by the sheer power of wanting it, it will happen. You can make it happen. You are so much stronger than you think and know.
Sometimes you need a little ego boost, sometimes you need a shoulder, sometimes you need advice, and sometimes you just need to hear that you can do it.
I got your back.
That’s why I am creating these programs – the membership site, the blogs, the mediations, and the Facebook Group. I want everybody to get the help, love, and support that they need to help them be the best version of themselves financially, spiritually, physically and mentally.
And I never want any woman to ever have to not buy that damn lip gloss!!!